Birthing a Wild Rose ~ Story 1

Her name is Wild Rose.
I can tell you that birthing a wild rose is not the same as birthing another rose almost 4 years ago.
I can say that the 22nd of September is now a day that I hold dear and deep in my heart
...every core of my being actually.

The surgery took over 3 and a half hours.
My blood levels were extremely low, and I'd lost 8 lbs, leaving me just 7 lbs heavier than my pre-pregnancy weight...
This caused some confusion to the nurses,
but we all agreed in the end that the scale was not broken :)
I needed 2 units of blood, which I am soooo thankful for.
I am beginning to see how it has made a huge difference in my recovery.

I was blessed to have a wonderful team (from the anaesthesiologist, to the nursing staff).
Most of all, I had 2 very great and skilled surgeons working side by side to keep me alive,
and bring my baby into the world.

As for the actual surgery...I don't know where to begin.
The surgeons went in for a horizontal cut,
but ended up having to do a classic (vertical) c-section.
The reason for this was due to extreme scarring from my previous babies.

Might I say that this is a painful go at childbirth?!
Since June 2009, I have not been able to go into a birthing room
without remembering that first surgery, the one that led me to the other c-sections.
C-sections would have never been my choice,
but at this stage, I thank God that I am here, present, and healing
telling a different kind of story...

As I type this post, we all hold our breaths that my "fancy" scar (as I call it) will stay intact.
IT IS SCARY, because I can never sit still, but I don't have a choice right now.
The Man literally does everything for me,
which has been a great help.

The baby (let's call her Wild Rose for now), was not breathing initially.
I remember there being so much movement around me as she was delivered, and whisked away.
And while this might sound really corny,
I swear, being in that room with harsh lights and the smell of blood and alcohol
I felt so relaxed, and warm.
And the movement?
It was as if everyone was just gliding around the room going about their business lol.
(probably because I was somewhat out of it).

Wild Rose was fine after a minute or so, and once stabilized, things just continued
as if nothing had happened.
I cried tears of joy, not one tear was shed out of fear for her...
We were where we needed to be on that day at that time.
I knew she would be alright...I just felt it.

So here I am standing at the edge of a great circle.
I stand on the edge of something greater than myself, and I feel pretty good about it subhanallah.
I stand at the beginning, middle and end of another journey simultaneously.
Isn't that awesome?
Feels amazing.


at: 29 September 2017 at 18:59 said...

Welcome Wild rose, aka Ms. N. You are loved!


at: 29 September 2017 at 19:38 said...

Congratulations Salma and family. May Allah bless you and protect baby N ftom all harm. I can't wait to meet her.

at: 30 September 2017 at 00:36 said...

Salma, my dear sweet friend, thank you for sharing your joy with us. You have been through so much in a year, but you never give up.
Enjoy the days with your beautiful new addition and stay positive.
Love & light always.

Fatima Sarti
at: 30 September 2017 at 06:41 said...

Congratulations! I was already wondering why you didn't post the last few days. The best wishes for you and your family.

at: 30 September 2017 at 06:49 said...

Loving every single thing about this post.
Welcome to the world little one.

at: 30 September 2017 at 08:23 said...

I am so happy to see you back here Salma. It looks like everything fell into place. Tell us more about your wild rose.
How much did she weigh? I believe she was born early, how is she settling in? How are the other children adjusting?

Congratulations! I am so happy for your family💕💕💕💕.


at: 30 September 2017 at 09:30 said...

Congrats sis. I love your little family, and I always loved reading your thoughts. May Allah bless your family and guide your children to the straight path amen.

Kelly ( )
at: 30 September 2017 at 12:39 said...

What a lovely story Salma. I had a feeling your little darling was going to arrive in September. I'm so happy that everyone is doing well. Take care and let's catch up soon.

Jen T
at: 30 September 2017 at 14:52 said...

Congratulations and many wishes for a speedy recovery. You are amazing. I don't know how you are still standing, but I'm super otoud to call you a friend.

at: 2 October 2017 at 07:08 said...

You make it all seem so effortless. Congratulations to your family. Baby N is lucky to have a mama like you.

Anna Maria S

Marie Kléber says:
at: 2 October 2017 at 07:29 said...

What a touching story!
Much love for your Wild Rose and your sweet family. Sending love from Paris.
May God bless her and you all with peace, light and joy.

**Freespirit says:
at: 3 October 2017 at 19:59 said...

Thanks to everyone who left a comment.
Baby and I re doing well inshallah, and the children love her sooo much.

*Welcome to my blog Fatima. I would love to know how you found my blog :) *

Heba, oh my, you :)
Ok, WR is a really relaxed baby. She is probably more like Iman was as a baby...not fussy, and just all
about business...milk milk milk. She likes comfort, and can put up with A LOT of noise (as I've found in the past few days).
She weighed 6'8 oz (more than Z) at birth, but is really petite, so looks much smaller.

Jessica Blackstone
at: 16 November 2017 at 09:26 said...

Oh my goodness Salma. It has been too long. I am so happy for you.
Stay blessed.
Kisses to the family.

Fatima Sarti
at: 7 December 2017 at 14:06 said...

Salaam Salma, I hope you and your family are in good health. I love the way you reflect on live in general and the motherhood in peculiar. I live in Holland and bumped quitte accidentally on your blog through Itto's blog, which I am following for some years.

*Freespirit Salma says:
at: 8 December 2017 at 18:00 said...

Wa alaikum asalam Fatima, I am glad you found my blog. Thank you for the kind words.
We are both fans of Itto :)





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